Trip 2 to Botantic Gardens

Dear Lord,

Somehow it really seems as thou I need to be alone before I can hear Your words.. I seemed to be closest to You when I take a slow and peaceful walk, alone with You..

From time to time, I always felt as thou You had forsaken me.. From the breaking up with Donna to the rejection that I had received recently, I kept asking where is the Lord whom I thought I knew, who promised to give what my heart desires.. Even up to yesterday I am still asking Mike why do I feel as thou You had forsaken me when I most needed you?

Today as I took a walk down Botantical Gardens, I took 2 pieces of bread with me.. Went to the small bridge and fed the turtles and swans with 1 pieces, and slowly make my way to the shed where I sat last week..

The sparrows are still there, but the difference today is that there are much more fishes.. Was intending to pick up my bible to read before changing my mind to feed the sparrows.. As I was feeding the sparrows, suddenly I recalled this verse in the Bible..

Luke 12:6 - 7
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.


Even the sparrows are not forgotten by God, how would God forsake me then, since I am worth so much more than the sparrows. Even without me feeding the sparrows, they still survive, and there are still other visitors who feed them, which proves that God still care for them despite how small they are, so what's more a child of God?

Lord, thankyou for this revelation that You gave me while I am feeding the sparrows. I know that this is from You, to tell me that no matter how back-slided and how worthy I am, You will never forsake me; that You will always be by my side walking with me thru'out this journey..

It is not that You are not beside me and supporting me, it is just that I am too blind too problematic to be able to see You..

Just like on the beach, during the peaceful times of my life, we will be able to see 2 sets of footsteps, one belonging to you and one belonging to me; during the down times of my life, there will always be only 1 set of footsteps.. That is not because You have left me, but that You were carrying me during this period..

Thank You Lord once again..

All this I give thanks in Jesus most precious name,
Amen.