Once again I look upon the Cross where you died

Dear Lord,

It's Black Saturday today.. Went to Church today to help Ivan Ng in his P.A. system.. Didnt joined them for worship leading.. Cos I am not ready, in a way.. Perhaps I am just too nervous that I may make any mistakes tomorrow during the worship.. I just dun want to make any mistakes, especially when there are very important people sitting at the congregation.. Lord, You know what I mean..

It's not that I lack faith in You to lead me thru tomorrow.. It's just that I lack faith in myself to do a perfect one to glorify Your name.. I am sorry..

Oh Lord, tomorrow LK's people will be coming as well, hopefully they will be in time to witness Isaac's and mind Baptism.. I really wish they can.. You know what I mean..

Lord.. I am seriously excited, yet nervous about tml.. Excited as I had finally made a decision to obey Your word by getting myself baptised in Your name.. Nervous because there will be so many people out there watching me.. Is it because of the number of people? Or is it because of.....?

Lord, I pray to You that everything will be fine tomorrow.. That I will finally be able to sucessfully get myself baptised.. I dont want another repeat of last year.. I know it was You who stopped me for getting baptised last year as I wasnt ready.. This year is totally different.. I am a changed person.. The Ivan of the past had long gone.. A "reborn" Ivan has arrived.. Tml shall be the day.. The day I go thru the most important ceremony in my Christian life, in my walk with You..

Lord, please guide me thru this life.. Be my guide, my shepherd.. For I am once lost, but now found.. Thanks to you oh Lord.. Thankyou..

All this I pray in Jesus name,
Amen