Dear Heavenly Father,
Greetings.. It's been some time since I last post anything here.. Haha..
Anyway, Lord.. Just to update you.. I am really glad that you have sent the Thai Students to our mist.. I had totally enjoy myself during this period of 1 week.. Granted it does burn quite a bit of my pocket, but I feel the money is really well spent.. I really love kids, and you just send more kids to come into my mist.. Haha.. What a wonderful Father you are.. :D
Unfortunately they have gone back to Thailand already.. But I did gain a couple of new friends via this trip.. And I realised that there are so many people of my age group who are really giving their lives to you, and to reach out to the world in hope to save them.. Lord, please bless Juliana, Joeyee and the likes that they will continue to do your work and to be a blessing to others via You..
Lord, may you also help to bring the 10 thai kids to come to know you more, so that they can be saved too? In Singapore, we have pretty much done our part thru' your blessings. Hopefully in Thailand, there will be people to help to follow up on them..
Oh oh oh! Almost forgot.. Thanks a lot for giving us mostly good weathers.. The trip was almost perfect.. With the kids able to go to all the places where Gregory and Aunty Jane had planned.. And despite the rain during the day in Zoo, it did not dampen our mood and we still manage to visit most of the enclosures..
It is really a wonderful week for me, Lord.. Thanks for always being there for me, being by my side when I most needed you, and giving me wisdom in knowing Your words better these days.. It is really wonderful to know that despite me falling away for about 1 1/2 years, You are still there for me, waiting for me, helping me, pulling me back up on my feet and helping me to grow stronger in You..
Lord, really thank you alot..
Lord, it has been a long long time since I really last prayed for others.. Let me revive that practise here once more.. =)
@Thai Students
Lord, may You have mercy on them and grant them with a soften heart that they may be more open to You and that there will be someone who will follow up on them so that in time to come, they will come to know you and walk this path with you.. May you grant them peace and safety back at home, as there are severe flooding in Thailand.. Lord, please protect them and their families that the flood will not reach their place..
@Thai Missionaries - Aunty Jane, Pramote, Gung, Bew
Lord, may You continue to look over them as they go back to Thailand.. May You be their strength as the continue to serve you with all their hearts and help them to be able to grow the church so that they are able to reach out to more provinces and follow up on more people. Please protect them
@Juliana
Lord, May you strengthen her as she continue to do Your work.. She seems to be very busy that she has been missing her cell groups and all.. Lord, may You protect her and not let her overwork herself. Grant her a pink of health as she continue to reach out to the students in NUS and also to follow up with them. May you grant her and the other Crusaders in the organizing of the up and coming Student Conference at the end of this year. May you also grant her the wisdom to juggle her time well so that she will be able to handle all the stress and still manage to go for her young adults cell group.
@JoeYee
Lord, may You be with her as she continue to put you as her priority. Doing full time Campus Crusade, part time Thai studies, and elective Psychology.. If I didnt remember wrongly that is..
@LKBC
Lord, may You be with our church so that as the youths continue to study more in depth into 2 Thessalonians, do grant us wisdom to know what are You trying to convey to us. Thank you for finally bring the 10 week Alpha course to an end, I guess everyone had really gain something. Lord, may you continue to bless the Alpha course as we enter into the next 5 follow up Alpha Course.
@XiaoYen
Lord, may You take care of her as her brother is currently working in Brunei.. She is pretty much the only person in Singapore now.. Lord, may you protect her and let her have lighter workload.. She seems to be so busy these days.. Lord.. Please guard over her..
@XianHuan
Lord, may You grant her the craving to know you more and to seek you with enthusiasm. May You take care of her so that she will be able to stand on her own and attend church with her own will. May You guard over her and teach her the right things about You.
@Me, Myself and Ivan
Lord, May you continue to guard over me, that I will stand strong in Your words and that nothing shall stumble me as I am holding you as my pillar of support. Lord, may you always be there for me and grant me the wisdom to be able to reach out to more people in my surrounding so that they too, may come to know you and to accept you as their Lord and Saviour.. Lord, as clearly my evangelism isnt exactly my forte, please grant me someone who can teach me how to reach out to those around me, so that I wont lose them before I even start saving them. Lord, may you also help me to decide whether I should go to Thailand this year for mission trip, as even until now, I am still in two minds whether to go. There are people who told me to stay back since I am having some doubts, but there are also some people who gave me the green light to go.. Lord, I really need your guidance in this.
Really thank you, Lord, for listening to me in all these Prayers
All these I pray in Jesus most precious name,
Amen!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Friday, September 30, 2011
Improving Due To God
Dear Lord,
Thanks for everything that has happened to me in the past few months..
I feel that as I am getting back on track with You, my knowledge about you starts improving and I am able to give praise unto you for all things that happen in my life.
Thanks for listening to all my prayers, granting them at Your own designated time and way. Out of the 3 prayers which I made earlier this year, the first 2 had already been kind of answered. I know what is my direction in life and I am getting closer to you once again.
But the last one still waiting for Your reply.. The one on asking for a soul partner who is equally God fearing.. Do reply it soon.. :D
In Jesus most precious name,
Amen..
Thanks for everything that has happened to me in the past few months..
I feel that as I am getting back on track with You, my knowledge about you starts improving and I am able to give praise unto you for all things that happen in my life.
Thanks for listening to all my prayers, granting them at Your own designated time and way. Out of the 3 prayers which I made earlier this year, the first 2 had already been kind of answered. I know what is my direction in life and I am getting closer to you once again.
But the last one still waiting for Your reply.. The one on asking for a soul partner who is equally God fearing.. Do reply it soon.. :D
In Jesus most precious name,
Amen..
Thursday, July 7, 2011
God Answered My Prayers, But I Wasn't Ready To Receive.
Dear Lord,
Is that really true? Or at least that was the answer I tot I received from You when I last visited the Botanic Gardens on yesterday.
Somehow I really feel that it seems that way..
It has been for quite sometime since the first time I prayed that prayer for a partner. If I am not wrong, ever since I had more or less gotten over Donna, I have been praying for a partner.
Girls came and went. Some good ones really came past my path, some bad ones too.. But none of them seems to be sent by You except for one. She was really someone whom I tot was Your answer to my prayers.
The reason why I felt that way was because the meeting with her was really under such a circumstance that without all the things that had happen before that, I will never have met her. This is one of the surest thing I would say.
Things took a turn interestingly after PX. Most of the people I am close to now would never have come into my path had it not been for the turn in the PX incident. And it was also that incident that I really grew up a lot.
After her, I think it was You who had sent that girl into my path, perhaps to help me, perhaps to bring me closer to You, perhaps just to answer the desperate cry from Your servant here.
Nevertheless, come to think about it, I wasnt ready for the prayer to be answered there and then. I was still having a hard time getting over PX. I still wasnt sure of my feelings then. I still wasnt sure of myself. With every time that I went out with her then, the past would just come and haunt me. With every step that I took, it was all thorns. It was painful then. Time interval between PX and the prayer being answer seems too short a time for healing to be complete, at least in human terms, in my terms.
Coming back to the present, after seeking so much guidance from everyone, ranging from Pastors to Counselors to You, my Lord, I guess I can finally move on from here. Pastor Annie said some very comforting words to me during the church retreat when I consulted her on my incident. Unlike everyone else who just told me to "let go" without offering other better solutions (as in if I can let go, I would have long done it isn't it?) Instead, what Pastor Annie said was that "it is fine, I just needed more time to get over emotional hurts. Not everyone is the same. Some take days, some takes months, and there are people like me who may take slightly longer. But what is true is that God will still look after us and help us."
That was really very comforting to me, cos I have never seen it in that way before. I had always been looking for "steps" to help myself in my situation, looking for a solution, but I have never seen it as just a normal path that I need to take. Moving On and Letting Go doesnt mean that I just say I surrender everything or I decide to do it and it just just happen. It takes time.. Or in my case, a very long time.
But while time is a variable in this, healing is definitely a constant, something that will definitely take place over time. With the Grace of You, my Lord, all healing will definitely take place, just as what Jesus did when He came to Earth. As long as faith is there, healing will follow.
My Lord, I guess I am ready this time round. I have spend lots of time thinking thru' lots of things recently, and I am pretty sure I will be able to handle it when You answer my prayer this time round. I really hope, Lord, that You will give me another chance.
Thankyou Lord,
In Jesus Most Precious Name I Pray,
Amen.
Is that really true? Or at least that was the answer I tot I received from You when I last visited the Botanic Gardens on yesterday.
Somehow I really feel that it seems that way..
It has been for quite sometime since the first time I prayed that prayer for a partner. If I am not wrong, ever since I had more or less gotten over Donna, I have been praying for a partner.
Girls came and went. Some good ones really came past my path, some bad ones too.. But none of them seems to be sent by You except for one. She was really someone whom I tot was Your answer to my prayers.
The reason why I felt that way was because the meeting with her was really under such a circumstance that without all the things that had happen before that, I will never have met her. This is one of the surest thing I would say.
Things took a turn interestingly after PX. Most of the people I am close to now would never have come into my path had it not been for the turn in the PX incident. And it was also that incident that I really grew up a lot.
After her, I think it was You who had sent that girl into my path, perhaps to help me, perhaps to bring me closer to You, perhaps just to answer the desperate cry from Your servant here.
Nevertheless, come to think about it, I wasnt ready for the prayer to be answered there and then. I was still having a hard time getting over PX. I still wasnt sure of my feelings then. I still wasnt sure of myself. With every time that I went out with her then, the past would just come and haunt me. With every step that I took, it was all thorns. It was painful then. Time interval between PX and the prayer being answer seems too short a time for healing to be complete, at least in human terms, in my terms.
Coming back to the present, after seeking so much guidance from everyone, ranging from Pastors to Counselors to You, my Lord, I guess I can finally move on from here. Pastor Annie said some very comforting words to me during the church retreat when I consulted her on my incident. Unlike everyone else who just told me to "let go" without offering other better solutions (as in if I can let go, I would have long done it isn't it?) Instead, what Pastor Annie said was that "it is fine, I just needed more time to get over emotional hurts. Not everyone is the same. Some take days, some takes months, and there are people like me who may take slightly longer. But what is true is that God will still look after us and help us."
That was really very comforting to me, cos I have never seen it in that way before. I had always been looking for "steps" to help myself in my situation, looking for a solution, but I have never seen it as just a normal path that I need to take. Moving On and Letting Go doesnt mean that I just say I surrender everything or I decide to do it and it just just happen. It takes time.. Or in my case, a very long time.
But while time is a variable in this, healing is definitely a constant, something that will definitely take place over time. With the Grace of You, my Lord, all healing will definitely take place, just as what Jesus did when He came to Earth. As long as faith is there, healing will follow.
My Lord, I guess I am ready this time round. I have spend lots of time thinking thru' lots of things recently, and I am pretty sure I will be able to handle it when You answer my prayer this time round. I really hope, Lord, that You will give me another chance.
Thankyou Lord,
In Jesus Most Precious Name I Pray,
Amen.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Fantastic Church Camp
Dear Lord,
It's been a long time since I last updated on this post as a chat with you. But at times I couldn't help but marvel at your immerse grace and love that you have showered upon me. I really thank you for bringing me to LK as well as to CCBC's church retreat.
There was a period in time where I am seriously losing sight of you.. Your image seems so blur that I thought I couldn't see you. Those were the times where all emotional hurts from the past just came flooding to the extent that I thought I would have been drowned in them. Yet with you, I found peace, I found strength, and I found wisdom in moving on to another church.
I have been back-sliding for more than 2 years now. Yet you did not leave me, but instead, brought me to a church where the sermons really speak to my situation; brought me to a church camp, which I had a very good chat with Pastor Annie about my situation and how to move on..
From Pastor Annie, I learned that I just have to go back to my basics, something sort of a revelation to me. I had always been looking for solutions to salvage or to prevent my situation from worsening, yet I didn't realised that going back to Christianity basics may just be the way to go.
But to be honest Lord, while I know that all things that I have belongs to You, and You have sole rights to all the things that I own, but at times I can't help but wonder, Why?
Perhaps it is just because I am still in the situation, that's why I couldn't see out of the box. And I know that once I am out, I will know the reason, just as it did in the Donna's situation years back.
But nevertheless, Lord, I know You will always be there for me when I need You. Lord, all I pray for now is that You will continue to carry me across in these tough sands. Lord, I know You will provide. I know that I will have peace with You around. Lord, please give me the required strength to move on, and to move closer to You.
Thankyou Lord, for everything you have done in my life.
In Jesus most precious name,
Amen
It's been a long time since I last updated on this post as a chat with you. But at times I couldn't help but marvel at your immerse grace and love that you have showered upon me. I really thank you for bringing me to LK as well as to CCBC's church retreat.
There was a period in time where I am seriously losing sight of you.. Your image seems so blur that I thought I couldn't see you. Those were the times where all emotional hurts from the past just came flooding to the extent that I thought I would have been drowned in them. Yet with you, I found peace, I found strength, and I found wisdom in moving on to another church.
I have been back-sliding for more than 2 years now. Yet you did not leave me, but instead, brought me to a church where the sermons really speak to my situation; brought me to a church camp, which I had a very good chat with Pastor Annie about my situation and how to move on..
From Pastor Annie, I learned that I just have to go back to my basics, something sort of a revelation to me. I had always been looking for solutions to salvage or to prevent my situation from worsening, yet I didn't realised that going back to Christianity basics may just be the way to go.
But to be honest Lord, while I know that all things that I have belongs to You, and You have sole rights to all the things that I own, but at times I can't help but wonder, Why?
Perhaps it is just because I am still in the situation, that's why I couldn't see out of the box. And I know that once I am out, I will know the reason, just as it did in the Donna's situation years back.
But nevertheless, Lord, I know You will always be there for me when I need You. Lord, all I pray for now is that You will continue to carry me across in these tough sands. Lord, I know You will provide. I know that I will have peace with You around. Lord, please give me the required strength to move on, and to move closer to You.
Thankyou Lord, for everything you have done in my life.
In Jesus most precious name,
Amen
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Fasting Ended
Dear Lord,
Thanks for bringing me thru' this 5 days of prayer fasting.. Somehow despite the fact that I gave myself a backdoor to back out after 3 days, you managed to help me pull thru the entire 5 days of pure fasting just for you..
Thanks you so much Lord..
I really hope my prayers is heard..
Thanks..
In Jesus Most Precious Name I Pray,
Amen!
Thanks for bringing me thru' this 5 days of prayer fasting.. Somehow despite the fact that I gave myself a backdoor to back out after 3 days, you managed to help me pull thru the entire 5 days of pure fasting just for you..
Thanks you so much Lord..
I really hope my prayers is heard..
Thanks..
In Jesus Most Precious Name I Pray,
Amen!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Fasting Again!
Dear Lord..
I will be going thru another round of fasting for the week. This time round my target is to fast until end of Friday. The fasting for this time is also for the 3 main prayer pointers, which is for my career, for my relationship, and for my spirituality..
I am also praying for the opening of door for my parents to acquire over the childcare centre in Jurong area.. Hopefully we will manage to get the amount of funds required..
Lord, over the last fasting, I realised quite a lot of things, and I can almost see you in all parts of my life, working on me, drawing me closer to you as the days passed.. I can literally feel that I am getting closer and closer to you.. As in spiritual wise.. Its been so long since I last had such kind of feeling..
Anyway Lord, thankyou for all your blessings.. Lord, this time round, my fasting is also in conjunction with my birthday which will be this coming sunday, 20th of march..
Lord, I will be 26 year old soon.. Please watch over me and guide me along.. I am still pretty much lost in the wilderness.. I need that light, that arm of yours and that reassurance of your words and presence to lead me, guide me and walk beside me, to show me the way..
Lord, really thank you for your time to listen to your servant's prayers..
Thank you Lord..
All this I asked sincerely in Jesus' Most Precious Name,
Amen.
I will be going thru another round of fasting for the week. This time round my target is to fast until end of Friday. The fasting for this time is also for the 3 main prayer pointers, which is for my career, for my relationship, and for my spirituality..
I am also praying for the opening of door for my parents to acquire over the childcare centre in Jurong area.. Hopefully we will manage to get the amount of funds required..
Lord, over the last fasting, I realised quite a lot of things, and I can almost see you in all parts of my life, working on me, drawing me closer to you as the days passed.. I can literally feel that I am getting closer and closer to you.. As in spiritual wise.. Its been so long since I last had such kind of feeling..
Anyway Lord, thankyou for all your blessings.. Lord, this time round, my fasting is also in conjunction with my birthday which will be this coming sunday, 20th of march..
Lord, I will be 26 year old soon.. Please watch over me and guide me along.. I am still pretty much lost in the wilderness.. I need that light, that arm of yours and that reassurance of your words and presence to lead me, guide me and walk beside me, to show me the way..
Lord, really thank you for your time to listen to your servant's prayers..
Thank you Lord..
All this I asked sincerely in Jesus' Most Precious Name,
Amen.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Fasting Begins
Dear Lord,
Just visited Botanic Gardens again on Monday.. Have been going there for the past couple of Monday to have a personal quiet time with you alone..
This is the first time in many visits that I decided not to bring any bread with me so that I can focus fully on you alone..
I prayed for 3 things..
1. For Career
I have been out of job for some time now.. While I am looking into other sources of income, I have yet to get an income until now.. Lord, do show me the career that you want me to be in.. While money is not the main priority in my life perhaps, but I guess I still need a fairly decent amount to be able to sustain my lifestyle as well as for future usage.. Lord, do show me the way.
2. For Love
Lord, ShuShyan just got married last saturday. David will be getting married this saturday.. Haiz.. Lord, everyone is getting married le.. I had been praying to look for a partner who will accept me for who I am, a partner who is a God fearing one, who would worship you as I do.. Yet Lord, after the departure of Donna, I have yet to find that person.. There are many girls who come past my life, but mostly non-christians..
Perhaps I would have gone out with them in the past.. But since I study Corinthians in greater depth.. There is no way I am going to go against your teachings. Perhaps I am scared already.. Ever since so many incidents that had got to do with me getting too close to a non-christian, I am fearful already.. Its Christian, or there is no other girls..
Lord, I know of a nice Christian girl whom you showed to me some 1 year ago.. that was during the lowest point of my life.. Lord, is she the one, or is the one for me yet to appear? Do enlighten me Lord..
3. For Spirituality
Lord, I have been back sliding for some time now.. thankfully with you around I have been able to track my spiritual health and thus able to do the small things that I can do to stop the rot.. But there are still much to do and much to heal..
I guess my future lies beyond CCBC.. This is the first time i feel so strongly for this decision.. For the first time, Uncle Tim had offered me a route to another church, together with Aunty Mabel telling me that I have to be happy with the church before I can learn and grow in the Lord..
Indeed, I haven been growing for quite some time now.. Even EShen told me to leave the church, not because I want, but because I have to.. We share the same feeling that CCBC is no longer the church it used to be.. And himself, like me, find it so hard to move on to another church cos CCBC is still the first church we attended.. Its like asking someone to leave their home to go to somewhere unknown.. That is not a very nice thing to do or to experience..
Anyway, this is the first time I guess i got an answer from you.. To Fast..
somehow, the word "fasting" just came to my mind.. It has been a long time since I have such kind of experience with you in botanic gardens.. As such, I will be going thru a 2 days liquid fast.. For the next 2 days starting today, I will stick to only liquid with no solid food.. Like what Mike used to say, if you can blend a burger into juice for me, I will gladly drink it.. Haha.. I will also use this fasting to pray for David Chan's wedding, that david and joy will have a God Abiding, forever loving future.. I will break fast on Saturday, which will be David's wedding day..
Till Then, God bless all..
Thank you Lord for listening to your humble servant's prayer. May you answer my prayers in your way..
Thank you Lord,
All this I sincerely pray in Jesus' most precious name,
Amen.
Just visited Botanic Gardens again on Monday.. Have been going there for the past couple of Monday to have a personal quiet time with you alone..
This is the first time in many visits that I decided not to bring any bread with me so that I can focus fully on you alone..
I prayed for 3 things..
1. For Career
I have been out of job for some time now.. While I am looking into other sources of income, I have yet to get an income until now.. Lord, do show me the career that you want me to be in.. While money is not the main priority in my life perhaps, but I guess I still need a fairly decent amount to be able to sustain my lifestyle as well as for future usage.. Lord, do show me the way.
2. For Love
Lord, ShuShyan just got married last saturday. David will be getting married this saturday.. Haiz.. Lord, everyone is getting married le.. I had been praying to look for a partner who will accept me for who I am, a partner who is a God fearing one, who would worship you as I do.. Yet Lord, after the departure of Donna, I have yet to find that person.. There are many girls who come past my life, but mostly non-christians..
Perhaps I would have gone out with them in the past.. But since I study Corinthians in greater depth.. There is no way I am going to go against your teachings. Perhaps I am scared already.. Ever since so many incidents that had got to do with me getting too close to a non-christian, I am fearful already.. Its Christian, or there is no other girls..
Lord, I know of a nice Christian girl whom you showed to me some 1 year ago.. that was during the lowest point of my life.. Lord, is she the one, or is the one for me yet to appear? Do enlighten me Lord..
3. For Spirituality
Lord, I have been back sliding for some time now.. thankfully with you around I have been able to track my spiritual health and thus able to do the small things that I can do to stop the rot.. But there are still much to do and much to heal..
I guess my future lies beyond CCBC.. This is the first time i feel so strongly for this decision.. For the first time, Uncle Tim had offered me a route to another church, together with Aunty Mabel telling me that I have to be happy with the church before I can learn and grow in the Lord..
Indeed, I haven been growing for quite some time now.. Even EShen told me to leave the church, not because I want, but because I have to.. We share the same feeling that CCBC is no longer the church it used to be.. And himself, like me, find it so hard to move on to another church cos CCBC is still the first church we attended.. Its like asking someone to leave their home to go to somewhere unknown.. That is not a very nice thing to do or to experience..
Anyway, this is the first time I guess i got an answer from you.. To Fast..
somehow, the word "fasting" just came to my mind.. It has been a long time since I have such kind of experience with you in botanic gardens.. As such, I will be going thru a 2 days liquid fast.. For the next 2 days starting today, I will stick to only liquid with no solid food.. Like what Mike used to say, if you can blend a burger into juice for me, I will gladly drink it.. Haha.. I will also use this fasting to pray for David Chan's wedding, that david and joy will have a God Abiding, forever loving future.. I will break fast on Saturday, which will be David's wedding day..
Till Then, God bless all..
Thank you Lord for listening to your humble servant's prayer. May you answer my prayers in your way..
Thank you Lord,
All this I sincerely pray in Jesus' most precious name,
Amen.
Friday, February 18, 2011
A sweet Valentines' Day with You, My Lord!
Dear Lord,
thanks for spending another valentines' day with me.. Haha.. It seems kind of pathetic at times, cos you always seems to be the back up when I do not have a valentine, even thou You should be on the top of my list..
Lord, just want to update You on the things that happened since I last blogged..
1) PeiXia got married le.. on the 20th of Jan this year.. It was her first anniversary with her boyfriend.. Even Ms Wang said that the marriage was so fast.. Many people feels it should be a short-gun.. I pretty much differs from that thinking.. Cos I still have faith in Christians.. If her boyfriend, or now husband, is a real Christian, I feel their marriage is really due to choice rather than force.. Nevertheless, hope that she will be happy..
A year ago, I pray that if I am not the one who bring her to Christ, I hope someone will.. Hopefully, her husband will be able to bring her to you.. That is really my prayer for her.. Perhaps the last prayer request for her.. Not too nice to still bother too much when she has already got married, isnt it? Haha..
2) On the eve of Chinese New Year, I went to the temple to pray to my deceased Grandfather.. Missed him lots.. Time flies so fast, he has left us for more than 1 year already.. Yet his absence is still felt when I went to visit my grandmother.. She had moved to my elder aunty's house already.. But despite having more people in the house, I still find something lacking.. The laughters and the jokes were no longer there..
Lord, Is my grandfather with you? Have you accepted him into your kingdom? He is a nice soul ya.. If he is really with you, do help me to take good care of him, until we meet again.. Tell him to have a good relationship with you also, if not when I meet him again I sure will tickle him until he cry.. :D
3) Pastor Mike finally left for Thailand.. Will miss him a lot, since he was really the one who help me with my path with you, guiding me thru the bible and how to understand and know You better.. He is really the pastor I most admire, and most respect.. Without him, I really dunno what will become of me.. Thanks Lord, for giving me such a wonderful pastor in my life..
4) On Valentines' day this year, it was perhaps the first Valentines' Day I spent with you alone.. 2 years ago, I spent in AKLTG studying Speed Reading; Last year, I spent my 14th Feb mourning over the loss of my grandfather, so technically, this is the first year I am spending it with you..
Went to Botanic Gardens.. I really like that place.. As Mike and I will say, this is the place where you can keep you sanity intact.. I guess without this place, I would have either gone insane or got into a depression given the trials I have been thru' over the past 1 plus year..
Asked a lot of questions while in Botanic Gardens, but somehow I can never get a reply from you directly.. But if I see how the past 1 year had unveil itself, I could really see your works in my life, which is perhaps the reason why despite my steep backsliding, I am still considering myself as a Christian and accept you as my Lord and Saviour..
Febuary marks a special month for me since last year to be honest.. Especially the last day, the 28th of Febuary 2010.. That is a date that I will never day to forget.. Perhaps in time to come, it may no longer have any significance? I dunno.. But if that day is really a sign from you, I really hope you will be able to bring me thru to the end.. I really hope that date is your answer to my prayers, Lord..
Grace told me, she had been praying for 3 years before David Chan appears.. And after a good 1 year, they will be tying a knot this coming March.. And to be honest, her testimonial is something I have witness in David Chan's life, in how he led his life over the many years I know him since I first came into contact with the church..
Lord,
Is it really true that as long as I give you that pen, you will really draft me a love story? In all truth, I am still grabbing on to my pen.. I am scared.. I dare not give up full control of my life.. Cos it is really frightening.. Yet if you really need me to lose before you are willing to grant me my prayer request, I am more than willing to surrender entirely to you..
Lord, please give me strength so that I can continue this path with you.. Please give me full faith so that I can give you full control over my life, as well as that pen.. Please give me mercy, that you will forgive all my sins and clense me, Please give me wisdom, so that I know what is the next step you want me to take..
Lord, and may you bless Pastor Mike in everything he do.. Now that he is in Thailand, do keep a watchful eye over him.. His body is never really too healthy.. So do grant him health and wisdom to impart to the people is Thailand..
Thank You Lord..
All these, I asked in Jesus most precious name,
Amen
thanks for spending another valentines' day with me.. Haha.. It seems kind of pathetic at times, cos you always seems to be the back up when I do not have a valentine, even thou You should be on the top of my list..
Lord, just want to update You on the things that happened since I last blogged..
1) PeiXia got married le.. on the 20th of Jan this year.. It was her first anniversary with her boyfriend.. Even Ms Wang said that the marriage was so fast.. Many people feels it should be a short-gun.. I pretty much differs from that thinking.. Cos I still have faith in Christians.. If her boyfriend, or now husband, is a real Christian, I feel their marriage is really due to choice rather than force.. Nevertheless, hope that she will be happy..
A year ago, I pray that if I am not the one who bring her to Christ, I hope someone will.. Hopefully, her husband will be able to bring her to you.. That is really my prayer for her.. Perhaps the last prayer request for her.. Not too nice to still bother too much when she has already got married, isnt it? Haha..
2) On the eve of Chinese New Year, I went to the temple to pray to my deceased Grandfather.. Missed him lots.. Time flies so fast, he has left us for more than 1 year already.. Yet his absence is still felt when I went to visit my grandmother.. She had moved to my elder aunty's house already.. But despite having more people in the house, I still find something lacking.. The laughters and the jokes were no longer there..
Lord, Is my grandfather with you? Have you accepted him into your kingdom? He is a nice soul ya.. If he is really with you, do help me to take good care of him, until we meet again.. Tell him to have a good relationship with you also, if not when I meet him again I sure will tickle him until he cry.. :D
3) Pastor Mike finally left for Thailand.. Will miss him a lot, since he was really the one who help me with my path with you, guiding me thru the bible and how to understand and know You better.. He is really the pastor I most admire, and most respect.. Without him, I really dunno what will become of me.. Thanks Lord, for giving me such a wonderful pastor in my life..
4) On Valentines' day this year, it was perhaps the first Valentines' Day I spent with you alone.. 2 years ago, I spent in AKLTG studying Speed Reading; Last year, I spent my 14th Feb mourning over the loss of my grandfather, so technically, this is the first year I am spending it with you..
Went to Botanic Gardens.. I really like that place.. As Mike and I will say, this is the place where you can keep you sanity intact.. I guess without this place, I would have either gone insane or got into a depression given the trials I have been thru' over the past 1 plus year..
Asked a lot of questions while in Botanic Gardens, but somehow I can never get a reply from you directly.. But if I see how the past 1 year had unveil itself, I could really see your works in my life, which is perhaps the reason why despite my steep backsliding, I am still considering myself as a Christian and accept you as my Lord and Saviour..
Febuary marks a special month for me since last year to be honest.. Especially the last day, the 28th of Febuary 2010.. That is a date that I will never day to forget.. Perhaps in time to come, it may no longer have any significance? I dunno.. But if that day is really a sign from you, I really hope you will be able to bring me thru to the end.. I really hope that date is your answer to my prayers, Lord..
Grace told me, she had been praying for 3 years before David Chan appears.. And after a good 1 year, they will be tying a knot this coming March.. And to be honest, her testimonial is something I have witness in David Chan's life, in how he led his life over the many years I know him since I first came into contact with the church..
Lord,
Is it really true that as long as I give you that pen, you will really draft me a love story? In all truth, I am still grabbing on to my pen.. I am scared.. I dare not give up full control of my life.. Cos it is really frightening.. Yet if you really need me to lose before you are willing to grant me my prayer request, I am more than willing to surrender entirely to you..
Lord, please give me strength so that I can continue this path with you.. Please give me full faith so that I can give you full control over my life, as well as that pen.. Please give me mercy, that you will forgive all my sins and clense me, Please give me wisdom, so that I know what is the next step you want me to take..
Lord, and may you bless Pastor Mike in everything he do.. Now that he is in Thailand, do keep a watchful eye over him.. His body is never really too healthy.. So do grant him health and wisdom to impart to the people is Thailand..
Thank You Lord..
All these, I asked in Jesus most precious name,
Amen
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
2011 - A brand new start, A bright start
Dear Lord,
It's been a real long time since I last really wrote on this blog.. This blog is supposed to track my own spiritual walk with you, which I guess, really work in tracking.. When I am moving extremely closely with You, I was able to write lots of stuff and pray and chat with You like a close friend. But when I am drifting away from You, the number of my entries fell tremendously, and most of the entries are more of what I desires than what You desires..
Interesting discovery isnt it?
Anyway Lord, thanks for blessing me with such a wonderful start the a brand new year, with a nice outing to Science Centre with XY and EY.. This is definately a much better start as compared to 2010, where tears flows more than the rain..
And Lord, I really want to thank You for finally helping to send my Grandma to my aunt's place.. Ever since the decease of my grandfather, she had been extremely stubborn and not wanting to move away from her old house.. Which creates quite a big problem for the rest of us as we are afraid that she might meet into an accident cos she will be staying that alone.. But with Your Grace, she is still as healthy as before.. Lord, the one request I have over here is that You will be able to bring my entire family to You..
Lord, I guess I finally know what i should do.. Over the past 1 and a half year, I have been backsliding like nobody's business.. Forgiving was the key that Mike told me.. I guess I finally know what I should do to slowly move back on track with you.. One of my resolutions for the year 2011 is to go to church at least 40 times out of 52 weeks, which means I can only afford to miss church once per month.. I am not asking for more as I am doing my best to slowly move back to You.. Give me some time, Have mercy on me and accept me back to Your arms..
The problem about going to church for the time being is whether CCBC is the ultimate place for me to go.. Sharon has left CCBC, Mike has left CCBC, EShen has left CCBC.. All my closest mentor have all left CCBC, barring David Chan.. I am still in doubt whether I should follow suit or should I stay in CCBC..
Anyway, this Sunday most likely I will be going to LKBC for a visit.. Hopefully Pastor Jimmy would be the one preaching.. But the problem would be, what comes after this Sunday? I doubt I will go ARPC, cos while I like that church, something is stopping me from going.. I guess I know the reason.. Or should I go to ChangLoong's Church? Or should I try out Prinsep Street Pres Church again? Or perhaps, there are other churches out there that I may come to like.. Either way, I am still kind of lost..
Lord, do show me the way and which church to really settle in, especially now that Mike would no longer be around to help me, I will have to really stand on my own..
Thankyou Lord,
All This I Asked In Jesus Most Precious Name,
Amen!
It's been a real long time since I last really wrote on this blog.. This blog is supposed to track my own spiritual walk with you, which I guess, really work in tracking.. When I am moving extremely closely with You, I was able to write lots of stuff and pray and chat with You like a close friend. But when I am drifting away from You, the number of my entries fell tremendously, and most of the entries are more of what I desires than what You desires..
Interesting discovery isnt it?
Anyway Lord, thanks for blessing me with such a wonderful start the a brand new year, with a nice outing to Science Centre with XY and EY.. This is definately a much better start as compared to 2010, where tears flows more than the rain..
And Lord, I really want to thank You for finally helping to send my Grandma to my aunt's place.. Ever since the decease of my grandfather, she had been extremely stubborn and not wanting to move away from her old house.. Which creates quite a big problem for the rest of us as we are afraid that she might meet into an accident cos she will be staying that alone.. But with Your Grace, she is still as healthy as before.. Lord, the one request I have over here is that You will be able to bring my entire family to You..
Lord, I guess I finally know what i should do.. Over the past 1 and a half year, I have been backsliding like nobody's business.. Forgiving was the key that Mike told me.. I guess I finally know what I should do to slowly move back on track with you.. One of my resolutions for the year 2011 is to go to church at least 40 times out of 52 weeks, which means I can only afford to miss church once per month.. I am not asking for more as I am doing my best to slowly move back to You.. Give me some time, Have mercy on me and accept me back to Your arms..
The problem about going to church for the time being is whether CCBC is the ultimate place for me to go.. Sharon has left CCBC, Mike has left CCBC, EShen has left CCBC.. All my closest mentor have all left CCBC, barring David Chan.. I am still in doubt whether I should follow suit or should I stay in CCBC..
Anyway, this Sunday most likely I will be going to LKBC for a visit.. Hopefully Pastor Jimmy would be the one preaching.. But the problem would be, what comes after this Sunday? I doubt I will go ARPC, cos while I like that church, something is stopping me from going.. I guess I know the reason.. Or should I go to ChangLoong's Church? Or should I try out Prinsep Street Pres Church again? Or perhaps, there are other churches out there that I may come to like.. Either way, I am still kind of lost..
Lord, do show me the way and which church to really settle in, especially now that Mike would no longer be around to help me, I will have to really stand on my own..
Thankyou Lord,
All This I Asked In Jesus Most Precious Name,
Amen!
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