Fasting Begins

Dear Lord,

Just visited Botanic Gardens again on Monday.. Have been going there for the past couple of Monday to have a personal quiet time with you alone..

This is the first time in many visits that I decided not to bring any bread with me so that I can focus fully on you alone..

I prayed for 3 things..

1. For Career

I have been out of job for some time now.. While I am looking into other sources of income, I have yet to get an income until now.. Lord, do show me the career that you want me to be in.. While money is not the main priority in my life perhaps, but I guess I still need a fairly decent amount to be able to sustain my lifestyle as well as for future usage.. Lord, do show me the way.

2. For Love

Lord, ShuShyan just got married last saturday. David will be getting married this saturday.. Haiz.. Lord, everyone is getting married le.. I had been praying to look for a partner who will accept me for who I am, a partner who is a God fearing one, who would worship you as I do.. Yet Lord, after the departure of Donna, I have yet to find that person.. There are many girls who come past my life, but mostly non-christians..

Perhaps I would have gone out with them in the past.. But since I study Corinthians in greater depth.. There is no way I am going to go against your teachings. Perhaps I am scared already.. Ever since so many incidents that had got to do with me getting too close to a non-christian, I am fearful already.. Its Christian, or there is no other girls..

Lord, I know of a nice Christian girl whom you showed to me some 1 year ago.. that was during the lowest point of my life.. Lord, is she the one, or is the one for me yet to appear? Do enlighten me Lord..

3. For Spirituality

Lord, I have been back sliding for some time now.. thankfully with you around I have been able to track my spiritual health and thus able to do the small things that I can do to stop the rot.. But there are still much to do and much to heal..

I guess my future lies beyond CCBC.. This is the first time i feel so strongly for this decision.. For the first time, Uncle Tim had offered me a route to another church, together with Aunty Mabel telling me that I have to be happy with the church before I can learn and grow in the Lord..

Indeed, I haven been growing for quite some time now.. Even EShen told me to leave the church, not because I want, but because I have to.. We share the same feeling that CCBC is no longer the church it used to be.. And himself, like me, find it so hard to move on to another church cos CCBC is still the first church we attended.. Its like asking someone to leave their home to go to somewhere unknown.. That is not a very nice thing to do or to experience..


Anyway, this is the first time I guess i got an answer from you.. To Fast..

somehow, the word "fasting" just came to my mind.. It has been a long time since I have such kind of experience with you in botanic gardens.. As such, I will be going thru a 2 days liquid fast.. For the next 2 days starting today, I will stick to only liquid with no solid food.. Like what Mike used to say, if you can blend a burger into juice for me, I will gladly drink it.. Haha.. I will also use this fasting to pray for David Chan's wedding, that david and joy will have a God Abiding, forever loving future.. I will break fast on Saturday, which will be David's wedding day..

Till Then, God bless all..

Thank you Lord for listening to your humble servant's prayer. May you answer my prayers in your way..

Thank you Lord,

All this I sincerely pray in Jesus' most precious name,
Amen.