2011 - A brand new start, A bright start

Dear Lord,

It's been a real long time since I last really wrote on this blog.. This blog is supposed to track my own spiritual walk with you, which I guess, really work in tracking.. When I am moving extremely closely with You, I was able to write lots of stuff and pray and chat with You like a close friend. But when I am drifting away from You, the number of my entries fell tremendously, and most of the entries are more of what I desires than what You desires..

Interesting discovery isnt it?

Anyway Lord, thanks for blessing me with such a wonderful start the a brand new year, with a nice outing to Science Centre with XY and EY.. This is definately a much better start as compared to 2010, where tears flows more than the rain..

And Lord, I really want to thank You for finally helping to send my Grandma to my aunt's place.. Ever since the decease of my grandfather, she had been extremely stubborn and not wanting to move away from her old house.. Which creates quite a big problem for the rest of us as we are afraid that she might meet into an accident cos she will be staying that alone.. But with Your Grace, she is still as healthy as before.. Lord, the one request I have over here is that You will be able to bring my entire family to You..

Lord, I guess I finally know what i should do.. Over the past 1 and a half year, I have been backsliding like nobody's business.. Forgiving was the key that Mike told me.. I guess I finally know what I should do to slowly move back on track with you.. One of my resolutions for the year 2011 is to go to church at least 40 times out of 52 weeks, which means I can only afford to miss church once per month.. I am not asking for more as I am doing my best to slowly move back to You.. Give me some time, Have mercy on me and accept me back to Your arms..

The problem about going to church for the time being is whether CCBC is the ultimate place for me to go.. Sharon has left CCBC, Mike has left CCBC, EShen has left CCBC.. All my closest mentor have all left CCBC, barring David Chan.. I am still in doubt whether I should follow suit or should I stay in CCBC..

Anyway, this Sunday most likely I will be going to LKBC for a visit.. Hopefully Pastor Jimmy would be the one preaching.. But the problem would be, what comes after this Sunday? I doubt I will go ARPC, cos while I like that church, something is stopping me from going.. I guess I know the reason.. Or should I go to ChangLoong's Church? Or should I try out Prinsep Street Pres Church again? Or perhaps, there are other churches out there that I may come to like.. Either way, I am still kind of lost..

Lord, do show me the way and which church to really settle in, especially now that Mike would no longer be around to help me, I will have to really stand on my own..

Thankyou Lord,

All This I Asked In Jesus Most Precious Name,
Amen!