2nd Round of Alpha on the way!

Dear Lord,

I give you thanks for seeing me thru' my troubles and trials along the way as a Christian.

2nd round of Alpha had started running. This time round I am the L2.. Helping pre-believer to come to know that God is real.. While not at my spiritual height, the last alpha course had perhaps helped me in my preparation for this round.

Looking back, I guess I am not as enthusiastic as the previous year. Still remember myself going thru' the web to search for answers to the questions we received. Perhaps the participants in the group do not have much questions that's why. But perhaps it could be more than meets the eye.

Lord, honestly, I serious hate this "waiting room" experience.. I really hope at times that my prayers are answer right on the spot. I know I kept telling everyone that You will only answer prayers in Your own timing, when You deem right. Somehow I find it easier to convince others than to convince myself. I am sorry for my lack of faith.

I am scared, Lord.. I am really scared.. I am scared that I am waiting for nothing.. I am scared that my prayers will never be answer as You may have other plans for me.. I really hope my prayers will be answered. I really hope my 3rd prayer will be fulfilled..

Lord. Help me in my disbelief. Help me to trust You more and to follow Your way.. Give me the faith of a mustard seed and more, so that when my desire and Your wish is in line, even the mountain will move upon request. Help me, Lord.

In Jesus most precious and holy name,
Amen.