2nd Round of Alpha on the way!

Dear Lord,

I give you thanks for seeing me thru' my troubles and trials along the way as a Christian.

2nd round of Alpha had started running. This time round I am the L2.. Helping pre-believer to come to know that God is real.. While not at my spiritual height, the last alpha course had perhaps helped me in my preparation for this round.

Looking back, I guess I am not as enthusiastic as the previous year. Still remember myself going thru' the web to search for answers to the questions we received. Perhaps the participants in the group do not have much questions that's why. But perhaps it could be more than meets the eye.

Lord, honestly, I serious hate this "waiting room" experience.. I really hope at times that my prayers are answer right on the spot. I know I kept telling everyone that You will only answer prayers in Your own timing, when You deem right. Somehow I find it easier to convince others than to convince myself. I am sorry for my lack of faith.

I am scared, Lord.. I am really scared.. I am scared that I am waiting for nothing.. I am scared that my prayers will never be answer as You may have other plans for me.. I really hope my prayers will be answered. I really hope my 3rd prayer will be fulfilled..

Lord. Help me in my disbelief. Help me to trust You more and to follow Your way.. Give me the faith of a mustard seed and more, so that when my desire and Your wish is in line, even the mountain will move upon request. Help me, Lord.

In Jesus most precious and holy name,
Amen.

Discerning problem..

Dear Lord,

Am i discerning Your word wrongly? Or is she really the one for me?

I prayed all day, and all night.. The prayers I made before my sleep has always been the same since the day that will never be the same again.. Or so I tot..

Before this, consistent prayers has always been my problem, yet after knowing her, I pray unceasingly.. Somehow I always feel that the answer to my heart's desire is her..

At times, I feel that she is indeed the one.. At times, I feel that she is just another joke You have for me..

Out of the 3 major prayers that I have asked for, 2 have been heard and granted.. Yet the last of the prayer is also the one most close to my heart.. I know that things will be done according to Your timing, and rightly so.. But I am sorry, I just cant stop myself from pondering over the issue time and time again.. It seems all too important to me that I cant stop..

A strong Christian, she is.. She has more than met the criteria that I set for a girlfriend..

Lord, all is in place now.. just waiting for Your approval, Your intervention and Your anointing..

Lord, if it is Your will, please grant my heart's desire..

All these I pray in Jesus most precious and holy name,

Amen