Moving out of the darkness

Dear Lord,

Day by day, I know that you had been with me, even at my down-est time, you will be there for me.. Sometimes I may feel that you are not there, but whenever I looked back in my troubled times, I realised that I will always have the strength to move on, and the strength comes from none other than You..

Forgive, is one of the hardest thing to ever do.. With our strength alone, we will not be able to do it, but with You, I know that you will give me the strength.. Yet Lord, there are still some things that I couldnt let go, that I couldnt forgive..

Pride, one of the deadliest sin, the sin which causes Lucifer to fall from heavens.. Yet I am not one who likes to be looked down upon, as such, people who look down on me are never forgiven by me.. Lord, what should I do? In my heart I know that I should forgive, but I just cant.. On top of that, there are so many things in my life that I still cant forgive totally.. The events may have passed, but they truly existed before! I may not be angry anymore, but the events that happened then was still vivid in my memory.. Lord, please show me the way..

And Lord, after going to Botanic Gardens, trying to repair our relationship, I think I had moved back to You once again, while it may not be as close still, but at least I saw the improvement in myself..

Lord, on top of that, thanks for leading me to watch Stained Glass Masquerade, presented by the Believers. It was really an insightful musical concert.. Really gain alot of insights to Christianity life and the mask that we should not be wearing..

And Lord, last but not least, the followings are some of my prayers for my dear friends..



For Kristin,
Lord I pray that you will help her in any way possible.. That she will walk a life close to you and that you will lead her to a good future, a wonderful future with only sweet dreams and no nightmares..

For Celeste,
Lord I pray that you will give her the strength to study hard and score well in all her exams.. Lord, please reduce her stress and give her strength to move out of the emotional circle that she subconciously set up for herself to protect her pride.. Let her have a shoulder to lean on when needed, a shoulder to cry on when sad, a person to chat when down, and a group of close friends to share her joy with.

For PeiXia,
Lord, while I have not been in touch with her life for the past couple of months, may I pray that you will grant her the ability to overcome all grieves and sadness if there is any in her life.. Her big eyes are meant to glow and spread joy to the world, there should not be any room for tears.. Over time I had come to realisation that I may not be the person who will bring her to know you and to accept you, but still, Lord, please send someone down to soften her heart so that she will allow you into her life..

For CCBC Youths,
Lord I pray that they will grow in you.. Let this batch of CCBC's future be strong enough to hold up the church.. Let them not fall during times of trials, but let them grow stronger and emerge as spiritually strong christians who will do your word and make disciples.

For PS Mike,
Lord I pray that you will grant him spiritual discipline and wisdom, so that he will be able to impart his knowledge to the younger ones.

For XiaoYen,
Lord I pray that you will stay close to her and grant her mercy and wisdom.. She came to Singapore all alone to work, may you be with her and protect her, shield her from lonliness and give her strength to pass each day with happiness and joy..

Lord, last but not least, may you grant me wisdom to move on with my life.. For the past couple of months, my life had come to a standstill.. Too many things had happened that I am immoblised.. Lord, if it is your will, let me succeed in the things that I had in mind, so that I will be able to provide for the girl that is to come into my life according to your will.. May you prepare me so that when this girl cross path with me, I will be ready to let her enter into my life, that I will be spiritually ready to bring me and her to a whole new level in our spiritual life..


Thanks Lord for listening to your servant's prayers.

All these I sincerely ask in Jesus most precious name,
Amen