A point to prove?

Dear Lord,

I find it quite confusing recently.. Ever since that fateful event that happened last year 15 of March, I started becoming extremely confused..

Who is the real me? What I am trying to prove?

These seems the question Lilly had been trying to ask me.. Honestly, I dun really know anymore.. All I know is, once you have wore that facade, you have to wear it all the way.. There is no stopping, no turning back.. Which is also the very fact why I am helping ppl not to wear that facade.. Being yourself is still the best..

Am I losing my own identity? What is my identity?
Lord, who am I in your sight?

Have been getting more and more confused as the days passed.. Or am I juz confusing myself when the situation could be very easy to start with?
Lord, what is your plan for me?

Am I really interested? Or is it juz lonliness that created that emptiness thus causing an interest?
Lord, what should I do?


Happy-go-lucky seems to be juz a facade at times.
Sky high self esteem seems nothing more than just a hoax..

Lord, I am confused..

Lord, if you hear me, do clear up my doubts.. I think I am carrying too much baggages from the past into the future? Can You help me to clear up this baggages? Can I see only Your footprints on the sand? Can You carry me accross?

Lord, please bring me thru' this period.. Thanks..

All these I ask in Jesus most precious name,
Amen