A point to prove?

Dear Lord,

I find it quite confusing recently.. Ever since that fateful event that happened last year 15 of March, I started becoming extremely confused..

Who is the real me? What I am trying to prove?

These seems the question Lilly had been trying to ask me.. Honestly, I dun really know anymore.. All I know is, once you have wore that facade, you have to wear it all the way.. There is no stopping, no turning back.. Which is also the very fact why I am helping ppl not to wear that facade.. Being yourself is still the best..

Am I losing my own identity? What is my identity?
Lord, who am I in your sight?

Have been getting more and more confused as the days passed.. Or am I juz confusing myself when the situation could be very easy to start with?
Lord, what is your plan for me?

Am I really interested? Or is it juz lonliness that created that emptiness thus causing an interest?
Lord, what should I do?


Happy-go-lucky seems to be juz a facade at times.
Sky high self esteem seems nothing more than just a hoax..

Lord, I am confused..

Lord, if you hear me, do clear up my doubts.. I think I am carrying too much baggages from the past into the future? Can You help me to clear up this baggages? Can I see only Your footprints on the sand? Can You carry me accross?

Lord, please bring me thru' this period.. Thanks..

All these I ask in Jesus most precious name,
Amen

What is my role in as a Christian?

Dear Lord,

Today, I had finally quited BSF.. I am stepping down from all responsibilities for the time being.

I am tired.. Juz too tired to carry on the things.. I feel, perhaps, by taking a short break, I will be able to come back as a better and stronger Christian..

Not only that, I had told Sharon that I will be stepping down from Sound System as well as all Ushering duties.. I will stop serving in church for the time being, until I feel it is time to get back..

But dun worry, Lord.. I will still give in my all to the Youths.. I love them.. They are one of the main reasons for my staying on in the church.. They are my main driving force, driving energy to keep my going..

Lord, do enlighten me on what role can I play in Youth also.. I am willing to help in all areas, but I cant think of a particular thing that I can focus on.. Please tell me what sld I do, what role sld I play..

Thanks Lord for listening to your humble servant prayers..

In Jesus most precious name,
Amen..