Rejected yet once again

Lord,

I dun understand whats the plan that you have for me.. I really dun..

What's your plan for me? What's the life you want me to lead? Can you be more straight forward and tell me? Cant you juz appear in front of me and guide me thru?

Lord, I just got rejected again. Honestly, what else can I do? Somehow the closest example I can deduce from this is something like what King Saul had been thru.. Asking for a King when a King was never intended to be given..

My spiritual health is dying.. Really dying..

I have never been so demoralised about my spiritual health.. But this time, I am scared of it and seriously cant see the light in the tunnel..

I haven been praying for a long long time.. Haven been reading or even bringing my bible for a long long time..

I really dunno what's wrong with me..

Haiz..


In Jesus name I pray for wisdom and love,
Amen