I cried for the first time, for You

Dear Lord,

I finally understood this particular real life story.. Let me summaried the story..

"There was a Pastor, and an Anti-Christ person who was invited to American's national radio to do an interview.. The broadcaster interviewed the Anti-Christianity person.. As expected, he started smearing the name of Jesus and questioning about his pressence and his words, stating that Christianity is all but a fraud..
When the broadcaster turned to the Pastor to ask him what he has to say to defend Christianity, the Pastor did not say anything. Instead, he broke down into tears, crying painfully, saying,"Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do".. And he continued crying..
The broadcaster turned back to his mic, saying, "Dear all, this is the best testimony I had ever seen in my entire life."

The broadcaster and the Anti-Christ person converted soon after.."


When I first heard the story, Lord, I must confess that I find that pastor an idiot.. Why would anyone cried.. It is not his fault anyway..

Little did I realised that everything is under your plan that I will experience something likewise.. I actually tear for her.. While she doesnt know, and there is no intention and no point to let her know, I just couldnt believe myself.. I am never a person who knows how to tear, even when watching some of the saddest show from Korea and all.. So it is really something when I actually cried..

Lord, I felt very demoralised.. Here I am to help to bring her closer to you.. Yet, little did I realised that the more I do my best, the more I felt I am a total failure.. Lord, I had give in all my best to help her, to help her overcome all her spiritual attack, to provide monetary support to bring her to church via cab, to provide her with whatever I am able to so as to bring her to you..

Lord, while I know this is nothing compared to the love you had for Your children, I feel I had already given in my very best to provide for her.. Lord, is there any other way I can do, that I can be at Your service?

Lord.. Please guide me.. I really need your guidance thru this.. Lord.. Despite all these, please continue to protect her from all harms, cos I dun hope to see her come into any harm.. For Lord, I am not blaming her but blaming myself for being so useless..

Lord, I know I may be almost nothing as compared to You, but please use me so that I will be able to impart the correct skills and mindset so that she will learn and know more about you..

Thank you Lord for hearing all my rants and prayers

In Jesus' name I pray sincerely,
Amen..

Spiritual Atk..

Dear Lord,



please take care and protect your children.. sheild us from the evil ones..



Lord.. as we were praying for Cyn, pls protect Cyn from the evil ones, that no harm shall come to her nor her family members.. Lord, may You protect the people who are praying for her as will as their family members, so that the demons will not be able to lay their hands on any one of us.. For God we know that You will protect us with Your almightly prower and grace..



Lord, Thank you so much..



In Jesus name I pray,

Amen