Spiritual Warfare.. And it is coming strong..

Dear God..


I had met with so much spiritual warfares for the last few weeks, to the extend that I dun even have the mood to type out any blogs or so..

All the things that I am going thru' are weighing so heavily on me that I am finding it hard to even breath.. I feel as thou I am suffocating.. From IAG Junior 2 to Church Retreat, to the illness that I had juz recovered from.. It felt so terrible..

Lord, please guide me thru this tough period.. Let your will be done.. Show me the path that I should take, show me the actions that i should follow.. I am now in a dilemma..

All this I ask in Jesus Name,
Amen

Dear God,

Can You explain to me why is it that You are such a weird God at times?

Somehow you had always like to poke fun at my feelings.. Why do you have to show me such a nice lady yet not letting me have her? She is such a sweet young lady.. Whenever I was with her, I could find a sense of security.. The hugs she gave at times really encourages me to move forward and give in my very best..

A nice outspoken young lady, and a very caring figure, at least to me.. Perhaps I was new, as such she paid a lot more attention.. But the care she gave was something that words could not describe.. When I had some sawdust flew into my eyes, she immediately attended to me by helping me to blow in the eyes.. I am really touched..

Haiz..

God.. Why does such things always happen to me? Yes I know that You will always have a plan, and that we would not know the plan since we were still part of the plan.. And that we will only know and understand when the whole event is over..

What is the plan you want for me, Lord? Does this trials really bring me up to be a stronger person or a weaker one? Lord, please help me thru'.

In Jesus most precious name I pray,
Amen